Fast forward a few weeks I was an executive assistant at the time, and right before I had to go back, my boss called to let me know he had found another job and wouldn’t be there when I returned. (although I couldn’t be happier for him, what the actual f***! such a heart break on top of my heart already breaking thinking about maternity leave ending) so, I wasn’t sure what it would even be like going back anymore. I only had time to mentally prepare…
When I finally went back, the first day I wasn’t as much of a mess as I thought I would be dropping Mateo off. My mom watches my son on the days I go in office. That first week – that first day, it still didn’t make it any easier. Getting back into the office, felt so odd, like a huge part of me is missing but it also felt nice? I had a new boss waiting for me, someone I didn’t know, and honestly, I didn’t have the energy to start fresh with. I was back, not only just as an employee, but also new mom who had to pump every 3 hours, exhausted, dealing with mom brain and trying to find my rhythm again. It was awkward, overwhelming, and honestly a little isolating. That transition was rough. I was trying to go back to my old schedule but the truth is, I couldn’t drop Mateo off at my moms at 6AM to be at the office at 7AM anymore. It was soooo hard to even wake up at times. Mateo was still waking up multiple times a night. My new boss wasn’t understanding granted he was barely a few weeks into the role and the other executive I supported for some reason felt like she was so against me now.
& a huuuugge part of me wanted to be home with Mateo forever but the other part of me needed to get back to a sense of who I was again. And all of me was just tired.
🤍 If you went back to work, what was that transition like for you? If you stayed home, what was that adjustment like? How did it change your sense of self?
