the beautiful chaos
As my postpartum anxiety and depression was at its peak, I slowly began to lose my appetite and my thirst. It’s weird to think about now, but once I decided to stop breastfeeding, it was like I also stopped eating and drinking for me. It didn’t happen overnight… Little by little, I started slipping. Then…
If you’ve stumbled across my little corner of the internet, welcome! I’m so glad you’re here. Right now, I’m in this in-between season of life. Constantly pulled between all the things I want to do and all the things life keeps throwing my way. It’s been a lot lately, but I’m starting to see that…
Admitting I needed help was the turning point but it was also just the beginning. Once I said it out loud, once I called the doctor, scheduled therapy, and opened up to Chris, something inside me shifted. It didn’t mean everything magically got better, there were still hard days, tears, and moments of doubt but…
It all came to a head one day at work. I had been holding it together the best I could, smiling, getting my tasks done, convincing myself I was just tired or maybe it was PMS. But inside, I was in a constant battle. That day, I walked into the office, no music on in…
I thought I’d finally be able to breathe. We had a routine, a sense of “normal” again, and on the outside things looked stable. At the time I didn’t realize what was necessarily happening to me. I started noticing more moments of irritability, snapping over small things, and then suddenly having these waves where I’d…
